ice

It may be normal for other persons..but it’s something new for me.Rest Day!Just that..But then again, its something new to me after some weeks.Now that there is a “change of heart”, im back on track..It’s kinda difficult though.Withdrawal symptoms.But I know, I’ll get use to this.Like I always do and like I did, a long time ago.

Funny though and this is one of the things why I DON”T wanna be human.Being humane equals emotions.I don’t like being emotional. I don’t wanna be caught off guard. Especially when you’re really desperate to  get some thing off you’re mind and system. Sometimes, you opt to cry your heart out. Hoping that  it would be the last time that you’ll do that for that specific issue. Hoping that what you feel will die out eventually.Or better yet, sooner than expected.

In a book written by Paulo Coehlo entitled By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept there are lines there that say “Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing what to do is the worst kind of suffering.” It’s heartbtreaking.

Now, I feel somewhat relieved because I’m in control of my life again. My schedules, routine, etc. It feels great to be by myself again and with my friends.

~ by ice-aiz on March 8, 2008.